So... almost a month ago, I talked about some changes that were going on in my life. I feel like it's finally time to share these changes.
Talking about things and opening up to people has never been easy for me, but I'm going to try.
Jeremy and I are getting a divorce. I feel like this has been a long time coming. For the past couple of years, I have been telling Jeremy that I didn't think we were right for each other. We are just different people. I feel like we grew apart. To me, we were just best friends. I think it was easy to just stay together out of comfort. I tried and tried to tell myself that I was happy, but a little voice inside of me kept telling me I really wasn't. I kept telling myself that I made a promise when I said my vows and that I shouldn't break that promise. I finally decided that I had to start living for myself and do what would make me happy instead of trying to please other people. I took a HUGE step and told Jeremy that I didn't want to be with him anymore...
When Jeremy and I met, I had a habit of dating assholes. Jeremy seemed like a very nice guy and I thought that's what I needed. Turns out, what you need isn't always what you want. And if what you think you needed isn't what you really wanted then it's probably not really what you needed.
It has been a crazy month... I flew to Chicago on January 11, spent a week here, drove to Missouri to see my family for a week, came back to Chicago for a week and then flew back to California to pack my things and have them shipped back here. I've been back in Chicago for about two weeks now. I'm getting used to living in a new place and I'm searching for jobs.
I go through phases of being sad and missing the life I had, but I know that I made the right choice and that both of us will be happier in the long run. For the first time in a long time, I'm actually looking forward to the future.
Oh, you might be wondering why I chose to move to Chicago. Well, I just really needed a change! I didn't want to just move back to Missouri, but I also didn't want to stay in California. I knew I wanted to be close enough that I could drive home, but far enough that I could make a fresh start. A friend in Chicago suggested I come here, so here I am!
Thanks for listening...
Also, one of my blog besties, Justyn, at Thoughts by a Petite Brunette is having an awesome giveaway for a C'est La Vie T-shirt. Head on over and check it out here.
you are one of the most amazing and beautiful people I know, and I love you very much and support all of your life decisions. I am always here if you need me.
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You are strong. And so courageous for posting this! I'm here for you if you EVER need a listening ear, even though you don't know me super well. Sometimes, I feel like countless people view\ divorce like this evil thing, this thing that should NEVER happen. I truly believe that there are circumstances that you SHOULD just get a divorce. Better now than later when you have kids & feel like you have to stick together no matter what. You're a strong lady. And I look up to you!
ReplyDeleteGod bless you Lindsay. You truly are a wonderful person, and an inspiration to many women. I'm sure you made the right decision and I'm excited for the chance to meet you someday.
ReplyDeleteGirlfriend I totally know what you are going through. I have been married and divorced twice. If ya need someone to talk to who has been there feel free to reach out! XOXO
ReplyDeleteI know this is a hard time for you, but girl, I am proud of you for taking that step and KNOWING that you shouldn't stay just because it's comfortable. You deserve to be 100% happy. Also, I'm in STL - so I'm not far from you - you ever need someone to talk to, or want a girls weekend...or anything. LET ME KNOW! :)
ReplyDeleteI am so glad I came across your blog today! I admire you for being so open about what is going on in your life, thank you for having the confidence to share it with your followers. I love the quote as well, my mom sent me that one about 4 years ago and through many moves and changes I always have that quote taped to my mirror!
ReplyDeleteThinking of you during this time of transition in your life and hoping you find peace and happiness!
ReplyDeleteI'm excited about your future as well. And proud of you for making a hard (but necessary) decision. Love you, Linds.
ReplyDeleteHi, I'm a new follower. Thank you for sharing such a honest and ultimately uplifting post. I'm supporting you 100% of your way.
ReplyDeletexo Ami
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Follow your heart and stay true to you chicaroo. Divorce is hard, no doubt about it, but I'm in the boat of thank god I did it too.. You have to do what is best for you. We live once! Thinking of you.
ReplyDeletePs.. Guess this means you're not coming to Oregon, huh? Booooooo ;)
This is actually my first time reading your blog. I'm very sorry for what's going on. All will be well. The heart will always heal itself. Go find your happy!
ReplyDeleteNot sure why I am just seeing this post but dear, I am thinking of you! Your happiness is the only thing you are in control of and we only have this one short life! Have fun in Chicago, you sure deserve it!
ReplyDeleteYou've got this. I'm not all pro-divorce, but damnit, sometimes things just don't work out. I think you'll be happy that you can look back and not have regrets. I love you and your bloggy fam is always here for you!
ReplyDeleteI never responded to this post, but, I thought about you today. Lots of life changes for you which is never easy, even if they are the right thing. I hope you are doing okay in Chicago... I was in Milwaukee but we just moved two hours north to Appleton, so I'm probably closer to 5 hours away from you. Anywho, sometimes you randomly have those moments when you think of a blogger and how she is, and today is that day for me. Hope you are well, girl :)
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