Wednesday, May 16, 2012


I feel like I have absolutely nothing to say lately. I stare at my computer and have to force myself to open it and boot it up. I am thinking this has something to do with my last job being a computer job from home. Every morning, I wake up and am sad at the thought of not opening my computer, clocking in to work and loading up all the pages to start my workday. I never thought I would be sad to not have a job, but here I am moping around every day. Honestly, all I want to do every day is lay on the couch reading a book or catching up on all the tv shows I DVR. I know that I really need to get out there and start looking for a job (there are reasons that I'm not, but that's a whole different story that we will get into later), but I just lack the motivation right now. I have no idea what I want to do next. Do I want to continue in retail, get a regular office job, try to go back to school, etc? I've been praying daily that God will show me what I'm supposed to do next, but right now I still just feel lost.

I got this tattoo about a year ago to remind myself to always have faith. Faith in God, faith in love, faith in family, faith in relationships, just always have faith. I can't see this tattoo everyday, but I know it's always there. Just like God is always there even though you can't see him. I do have faith that God will show me the way and I will end up being happier than I ever thought I could be.

If this has happened to you, what have you done to cope? How have you gotten through it?


  1. Lindsay, you really are a beautiful person inside and out. I've never been in your exact position, but I have felt heartache. I have found that making a decision and then praying about it always helps me. You're definitely on the right track. (And don't feel guilty about taking time to read and catch up on DVR!! deserve it)

  2. It has happened to me, and it is hard! Let yourself be sad for awhile, but if you get too down you've got to get out! It will make you feel better. I love the tattoo and what it means.

  3. What works for everyone is different. For me I just remind myself that I am in such a better position in life than so many others. So many people don't have people who love them and comfort them. Some people don't have food. I know it seems dramatic but it's what works for me.

  4. Awe, sweet girl, it will come. Just hang in there and have you said. He will lead you down the path that was meant for you...if anyone knows's me. I have been through sooooo much this past year and a half, and somehow, the Lord has brought me through it. Stay strong!!

  5. This post is perfectly honest. Perfectly sweet, you can't see it everyday.. but you know it's there.

    When I've lost faith (many a times) I have always leaned on the faith of another. Someone who believes in me.

    For the record, I believe in you.

    1. *insert "chop me up"............ we have failed today. failed. at least we failed together.

  6. I think we all have that feeling from time to time- losing motivation to do things we know we need to get done. I don't know a magic tool to snap out of it- sometimes I'm able to do it quickly and other times, I am like a tortoise. Honestly (and this sounds kind of dumb) but when I continue working out, I find that I always have motivation to keep my life on pace. That energy boost really aides me all day long.

    That is a neat tattoo and I like your reason for it and for its placement. I have no doubt you will figure out what you want to do soon enough. :)