Thursday, May 3, 2012

Life Goes On...

I realize that my posts have been rather somber this week, reflective of my mood. I have been straight up, down in the dumps bummed. Very, Very bummed! The reason for all this bummage (what? bummage isn't a word?) is that I got a call Sunday evening telling me that I was being laid off as of this Friday. I was completely blindsided by this. I have had been with the same company for over 5 years. I loved my job! I worked for a year and a half in the store in Missouri and then I've worked the rest of the time in CA from home. I am struggling with feeling like a failure. I know that it's not my fault and I did nothing wrong, (almost every employee is being laid off) but it still doesn't make me feel like any less of a failure. I really have no idea what I am going to do now. Luckily, my income was just a small (very small) portion of our overall income and unemployment will help considerably. I am trying to see the good in all this, really I am.

In trying to see the good, I have come up with a list of some things I want to do with my unexpected time off. 

1. Major spring cleaning
2. Cook dinner every week night
3. Look into cosmetology school
4. Decide exactly what I want to do with the rest of my life
5. Work out every day

While re-reading this post, it reminded me of a cute story. I worked at a preschool for awhile and one of my co-workers and I were putting together a puzzle with a bunch of 4 year olds. We were almost finished with the puzzle and realized one piece was missing. My co-worker said, "Well, that's a bummer!" and one of the kids looked at him and said, "What's a bummer?" It was seriously one of the cutest things ever. How do you explain what a "bummer" is to a 4 year old? 

Anyway, thanks for reading and commenting on all my somber posts this week. Your encouraging words are very appreciated!


  1. This just happened to me recently too! Everything happens for a reason and I am much happier now. We can Spring clean and cook together!! Hang in there!!

  2. Oh that is really sucky << yup that’s a word as well. And low blow! But look at all the bright and amazing things that are coming out of this. I always think that when one door closes lots more open up. Cooking everyday.. working out.. and going to school I say heck yeah!! It will all work out for the best cant wait to see where this adventure will take ya!

  3. bummage can totally be a new work. & you are so not a failure. i totally get feelings can't be helped but don't let that over take you! i like your list & wish i had your motivation!! i can do the dinners every weeknight {usually} but the rest ha! keep your head up girl -- you're awesome :)

    oh & i love kids. they're so stinkin' cute!

  4. I'm so sorry! I love that you've listed things that will be positive about this change, I've been laid off twice and really struggled with it both times. Hope it ends up going well for you.

  5. I got laid off about 3 years ago. For almost a year, we struggled. But it was the biggest eye opener. It taught me that material things are just that. I learned that I can survived on a dime and that I needed to find a job quickly because my husband and I were going to kill each other 25 other people were laid off the same time and it was for me the door that led to another road. A better road.

  6. Oh, I am SO sorry! My husband totally went through this....everything you are feeling is normal! You AREN'T a failure, it's NOT your fault, but you can't help but feel those emotions. I'm so sorry for that :( But our lives have turned out better than we ever could've imagined (and we didn't think life would go on when he got laid off) so keep your chin up!!
    And cosmetology school? I say GO FOR IT! I love doing hair :)
    Praying for you!!

  7. I'm so sorry Lindsay. I know you're hurting right now and I wish I could see you in person to cheer you up. I think your list is fantastic. Doing those things will for sure keep you focused and make you feel better. Love the idea about you going to cosmetology school.

  8. "I am struggling with feeling like a failure." - ironic, coming from the girl who has been one of the most supportive people in my life this week.. hum.

  9. You do exactly with your blog that is the reason I got into blogging... Keepin' it real. This something that happens in life, and it happened in yours. Look to those you love for support. I am recently in love with this quote I used in my blog.

    “I actually attack the concept of happiness. I don’t mind people being happy - but the idea that everything we do is part of the pursuit of happiness seems to me a really dangerous idea and has led to a contemporary disease in Western society, which is fear of sadness. It’s a really odd thing that we’re now seeing people saying 'write down 3 things that made you happy today before you go to sleep', and 'cheer up' and 'happiness is our birthright' and so on. We’re kind of teaching our kids that happiness is the default position - it’s rubbish. Wholeness is what we ought to be striving for and part of that is sadness, disappointment, frustration, failure; all of those things which make us who we are. Happiness and victory and fulfillment are nice little things that also happen to us, but they don’t teach us much. Everyone says we grow through pain and then as soon as they experience pain they say 'Quick! Move on! Cheer up!' I’d like just for a year to have a moratorium on the word 'happiness' and to replace it with the word 'wholeness'. Ask yourself 'is this contributing to my wholeness?' and if you’re having a bad day, it is.” —Hugh Mackay, psychologist and social researcher

    This is going to make you a wholer person Lindsey {even though it monstrously sucks} Hugs from Wisconsin!