I realize that my posts have been rather somber this week, reflective of my mood. I have been straight up, down in the dumps bummed. Very, Very bummed! The reason for all this bummage (what? bummage isn't a word?) is that I got a call Sunday evening telling me that I was being laid off as of this Friday. I was completely blindsided by this. I
have had been with the same company for over 5 years. I loved my job! I worked for a year and a half in the store in Missouri and then I've worked the rest of the time in CA from home. I am struggling with feeling like a failure. I know that it's not my fault and I did nothing wrong, (almost every employee is being laid off) but it still doesn't make me feel like any less of a failure. I really have no idea what I am going to do now. Luckily, my income was just a small (very small) portion of our overall income and unemployment will help considerably. I am trying to see the good in all this, really I am.
In trying to see the good, I have come up with a list of some things I want to do with my unexpected time off.
1. Major spring cleaning
2. Cook dinner every week night
3. Look into cosmetology school
4. Decide exactly what I want to do with the rest of my life
5. Work out every day
While re-reading this post, it reminded me of a cute story. I worked at a preschool for awhile and one of my co-workers and I were putting together a puzzle with a bunch of 4 year olds. We were almost finished with the puzzle and realized one piece was missing. My co-worker said, "Well, that's a bummer!" and one of the kids looked at him and said, "What's a bummer?" It was seriously one of the cutest things ever. How do you explain what a "bummer" is to a 4 year old?
Anyway, thanks for reading and commenting on all my somber posts this week. Your encouraging words are very appreciated!